"If you want to truly understand something, try to change it. -Kurt Lewin"
Perplexing isn't it?? It reminds me of some boys I was friends with as a child who would get new toys and immediately take them apart just to put them back together. When I asked Doug why he did that he simply responded "Well, if it's mine I need to know how it really works." DEEP! Especially for a second grader!
I'm taking this philosophy to my brain and understanding why I do the things I do and the pattern of my thinking. I know there is a treasure trove of childhood dysfunction I need to delve into to trace the conduit of my thoughts. What it comes down to is that I don't trust: I don't feel lovable: I don't feel like I'm good enough.
I have therapy on Saturday morning, so the hard work starts then.
I'm so grateful for the breadcrumbs the universe is sending me right now that are enabling me to build my sober toolbox. Life can be good, can't it?
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